The Ministerial staff is on a rotating schedule to take one day a week to spend in prayer and meditation. Mine was last Tuesday. I have been trying to figure out what I got from that day because since then I have been under attack spiritually. I started by doing some meditation exercises and then I started to read chapter 3 from the book "Celebration of Discipline" by Richard Foster. Chapter 3 was about the discipline of prayer.
Here are my thoughts in "raw" form.
To pray is to change. The central way God uses to transform me is through prayer.
isn't that the purpose of our lives? to be transformed by God? So that others can see our transformation and start their own by connecting to God? It is only through a transformed life that others see God.
Transformed means? To look completely different from when I started.
Allowing God to transform me is scary. It hurts. It's uncomfortable. it requires action and passion on my part.
I am tired. I am weary. I am ashamed that I try to hide from God so that He can't ask/require anything more from me.
I need to listen first. Listen for guidance. God--what is your will for FXCC? for me? for Jay? for Chelsea? for Alex? How do you want to use me to advance your kingdom?
God I don't want my desires to get in the way. I pray for courage to accept what you ask/tell/command me to do.
It was a great day! I went out their anxious and I came home peaceful.
Wednesday, March 18, 2009
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