Who am I?

"Who am I? That the Lord of all the earth, would care to know my name? Would care to feel my hurt? Who am I? That the bright and morning star would choose to light my way in my ever wandering heart. It's not because of who I am but because of what you've done. Not becuase of what I've done but becuase of who YOU are...."

I LOVE this song! It makes me cry everytime I hear it becuase this song strikes at the heart of why I gave my life to Christ.

On my own, I am nothing. God knew me before I was born while I was still in my mother's womb and loved me anyway. You might say, that it is easy to love a baby even an unborn baby. But God being God, KNEW me. Me in all my flaws, all my shortcomings AND all my strengths even before I did those things. He knows all that and loves me anyway! He yearns to have a relationship with me. The one who created EVERYTHING wants me to know Him and have a relationship with Him! How awesome is that?!!! I am made in His image. I was created for worship. I was created to follow Him and do His will. I was created to serve Him. I was created to learn about Him and then in turn tell others about Him. I was created to do all things to glorify Him.

Why? Because he made everything and still wanted to know my name. He wants to be my light and my way. It is not because I can "do" things and earn His love. It is available to me, I have to choose it. I choose it because MAN! Is it awesome to live like that instead of trying to make it on my own. I can rely on Him and His love for me to get me through each day. I don't know if you have noticed but this world can be horrible! Terrible things happen. How do these people get through it without God? I know I can't. I need Him. It actually very freeing (sp?) to be able to say that and live that. That is very contradictory to our culture.

The end of that song....."I am a flower quickly fading. Here today and gone tomorrow. A vapor in the wind. Still You hear me when I calling. Lord you catch me, when I falling. And you told me who I am. I am yours"

Thank you Lord for telling me who I am. Lord, my prayer is that I listen and obey.

Quick before the door closes!

Man, am I getting old. I have secretly known it for a while but hello, Josh Kellar left a comment on myblog and then I followed his blog and read all what was happening in his life....

I have been in denial. By the way, denial itself is actually good, it is when you come out of denial and into reality that it sucks!

So, the getting old thing...i have been keeping it a secret that I am getting old. I dye my hair, I blame my weight gain on my children. I am fooling everyone! HA! I mean my brother's have kids. 5 between the 2 of them! Their friends that they hung out in high school with and hung out at my house with are having kids! I mean Chad Patterson is a DAD!!! COME ON! Josh is married, Heather has 2 kids! You all are suppose to stay the same so that I don't feel old! A few years ago I ran into a college kid who was in like 2nd grade whenI had him in SACC (school age childcare) when I worked SACC in college!!!

I have a daughter in high school for crying out loud! She plays volleyball for the high school. My son is in his last year of elementary school! The other day we walked into the school for a game and I realized "oh my, i need to make sure he is in the school so that he learns his way around before next year!" In 9 very short months...I think that time gets literally faster as you get older...he will go to JR. HIGH!!! He is my baby!

I remember record players. I had a record player! I have vinyl!!! Michael Jackson, Bon Jovi, Eagles, The Go-Go's, the Firm! It is a concept that is filed under anciet history for my kids. They of course have some of the afore mentioned artists but now they are on their ipods not on vinyl or even a cassette tape!

I used to talk on the phone for as long as I was allowed and I would walk as far as the extra long cord would allow me...just as long as I unwound it and hung it back up right as to not exhasterbate my father....now they IM. There is not calling on the phone. They text msg. Apparently that is easier than picking up the actual now cordless phone and using their mouth to communicate!

I try to stay up adn current. But nothing can hide the fact that I am truly aging. Well reality has been real! I am headed back into denial quickly before the door closes!

Have a great weekend!